Beauty School Dropout

Sunday, August 10, 2014

kamu.

"and now I spent my time thinking of the way to get you off my mind"
"but now I wake each day looking for a way that I could see your face"

- somebody to you, the vamps

awalnya, menyangkal
lama kelamaan, nyaman
lambat laun, akan selalu mencari cara untuk bertemu

Kata orang, cinta itu dipilih bukan memilih.
salah satu alasan jika ada yang bertanya mengapa kamu.
satu-satunya yang menanyakan hal itu ya, aku sendiri.
mengapa kamu?
dari semua orang di dunia, mengapa kamu?

"look at me now I'm falling"

ya, jatuh.
tambah aku menyangkal, tambah dalam aku terjatuh.
tambah kamu berkata, tambah dalam pula aku terjatuh.

Sunday, July 14, 2013

rest in peace, t-rex.

well I currently went on twitter to reply some dm s when I saw this news. freakinly depressed. he is a really nice guy, a role model, great actor, truly incredible boyfriend to lea, he is a perfect human being. I know you may think "a perfect guy? he even did drugs" but he did want to heal and went to rehab by himself. stay strong lea, we love you. we love you cory. gosh, their wedding is in 2 weeks! this is so depressing.

He is a true leader, an inspiration. Well maybe I tweeted that I hate finchel because all of the drama, but I love monchele. Gosh :( why is this happening this is the worst day ever happen in my life.

perasaan gue? hampa. banget. sumpah gatau kenapa.

many people lost their idol, many people lost their role model, but lea lost her soulmate. finchel is endgame, monchele is endgame.

tell your idol that you love them, many people can't do that anymore.

Rest in peace my love, I love you cory

p.s: for chord overstreet, if you read this, I love you so much I can't lie,thanks God I can still tell that I love you. I love you. I love you for the rest of my life, please sent my prayers to cory and my hugs to lea. i love you. with all my heart, i love you.

Thursday, July 11, 2013

Utkarsh Ambudkar

so, I bought pitch perfect like months ago (maybe on february or march forgot) I don't exactly remember when but it is on the second semester of 9th grade but I don't have much time to watch the movies (fyi I bought a lot, i meant it A LOT) and then when the holiday finally come, I watched it. andddd I FELL IN LOVE WITH THE MOVIE soooo muchhh<3 and then I found a guy that so interesting, he's name it utkarsh, he play as donald on pitch perfect (God, I wish he will be on pitch perfect 2) well, I'm a stalker pretty much and I knew that he was on rocket science with anna kendrick (beca on pitch perfect), the mindy project with anna camp (aubrey on pitch perfect), he was on a show name "modern terrorism" he has a trio that named the beatards (I LOVE GET LITE SO MUCH), he have 2 albums, he has a girlfriend name sora connor, and I ADORE HER SO MUCH, she is just soooo fashionable<3 <3 he was on a freestyle love something I forgot it is like freestyler beatboxer group, he insert his voice for a cartoon on China, he was on a temporary band name kiss kiss bang bang (Sora named it), he and sora met on the set of pitch perfect (well, sora was on the footnote, you know, the group that get disqualified and then the barden bellas get into final) HIS MOVIE IS COMING OUT ANYWAY AND HE IS THE MAIN ROLE OMG I'M JUST SOOOO HAPPY, by the way utkarsh and sora are aca-adorable<3

[*re-read* omg I'm writing all of this?! it doesn't even sounded like me]

here take my utkarsh, no ofc I'm kidding you can't take him, he's sora's ;)

Saturday, April 13, 2013

untitled.

salahkah ku bila, kau yang ada dihatiku?

Lagu maliq yang ini terngiang-ngiang dikepala gue, karna jawaban di lagu itu cuman satu, salah. Salah banget untuk suka apalagi jatuh buat orang yang emang ga pantes buat lo kagumi, oke sebenernya ga keseluruhan lagu cuman lirik yang diatas yang gue fokuskan disini dan juga kehidupan gue sendiri. Orang yang bener di mata lo, belum tentu bener di hati lo, jujur gue juga capek denger kalimat itu. Ya, emang orang yang lo pikir bakal baik untuk diri lo belum tentu baik buat lo, sedangkan orang yang menurut lo buruk untuk diri lo siapa tau sebenernya dia itu baik bahkan bisa membahagiakan diri lo melebihi si Mr.(on your mind)Right,

Pernah kejadian sama gue, tahun pelajaran ini juga, yaitu 2012-2013 gue gabakal detail jg cerita disini, intinya orang yang sangat gue respect di tahun 2012, udah ga gue respect-in di tahun 2013, kebalikannya orang yang bener bener ga dapet respect dari gue di tahun 2012 sampe gue kata-katain sampe mampus-dibelakang sih yaudah lanjut- sangat gue hormati tahun ini. Gue sampai berpatokan sama dia, gue harus jadi kayak dia, lebih baik tentunya. Orang yang udah ilang respect dari gue? udah ga pernah contact tuh gue sama dia, walaupun dia jadi ada dimana - mana, caperlah, inilah, emang gue pikirin????:))))))

Kebalikannyaaa! gue semakin dekat dengan orang yang gue jadiin patokan, semoga semakin dan semakin dekat yaaa. Nah jadi, kata - kata mainstream yang gue juga udah capek bgt dengernya yaitu "Orang yang menurut lo baik buat lo, belum tentu baik buat lo" itu ada benernya juga loh guys! Dan kata - kata itu ga cuman buntu di masalah love lo doang, temen juga, lingkungan juga, hati - hati sama muka broo kan yang penting mah hatinya,eh ini maksudnya gak beneran muka loh

dan anyway, shooting star sukses bikin gue banjir air mata :'''''' gatahan banget pas adegan sam maksa keluar buat nyari britt, sumpah gue jadi kebayang yang disana:''''' love youu<3

Sunday, April 7, 2013

give my heart a break, please.

I'm trying to rest my heart for a while, can you just STOP whatever you do?! I'm totally sick of everything. I'm trying to live my life to the fullest, and I'm trying to forget everything that's related to you. This is my live, don't you ever trying to ruin anything that is not yours. I almost lost my mind by crushing on you this past years. AND NOW I'M TOTALLY DONE WITH IT.

See? I've already moved on, and please don't ever ruin anything anymore. I want to take everything that I lost this past years, because of crying (did I said crying?! YES I DID) over you. Like Quinn Fabray said, people grow apart deal with it. I am growing too, you're just a past for me, and I know my english are bad, but you know what's more bad than my english? yes, you.

Back then, when I'm trying to be a part of your life, you blew me up like I'm a dirt. But now what? When I'm trying to get over you, you're every-fucking-where. I'm so damn freaking tired of you. what past is past you know? please just leave me alone! I'm trying to start arranging my new life, with new environment, new places,..new crush. I'm so freakin' done with you.

I've lost all my respect to you, even everytime I saw your face I'm about to puke things on my stomach, haha no that's just rude. I need space, please give me a rest, give my heart a break, I've found someone, someone that finally can get me, someone that's not really good at telling jokes instead he tried impression, haha not that one.